Love twist

I'm in love with somebody again, who is younger than me again, this hearts some time makes me confused.. why should I do? I have no more hope, even if i did something, i will be in that kind of way, till i finally bored with them, and left them without partners.

This could make them get hurts because of my unconsistency feelings. I do have a feeling, when i was in love and keep chasing them around, but as soon this feelings fell apart, my personality changes to an anymous whom that they didn't recognized who I am.

I love this guy right now, not the other one. He's more mature and wise, i like that kind of man. But, as soon when I like this guy, I left em without reasons and never even talked to them oftenly like the last time i chased him.

I felt bad for him, but he's a materialist guy type, he only thinks for himself, i paid for him, i feel like i'm his 2nd mom. It feels that he used me and manipulated me. Similarly, he cannot responsible and control his emotion and he cannot save money. A short information, Saving money is one of the important thing in my list of ideal guy.what's worst is that, he said to me 'CRAZY' when i was talking with my mom suddenly. Oh fucking junior ! I am older than you biatch ! I'm sorry i said this in here, if i said it on the phone call, your brother will be mad. Hahaha... but who cares ?! I do not care about you anymore.

Well, this 2nd guy, he can concerned about money in fact he is few years younger than me, and he is in the same classes with that 'guy'.

Oh shit, help me, i dont want to fell in love right now, i wanted to focus on my duty.